do you know how far is it? I don't think you know, even you know, you jsut dont realise how far. leave here out to space, just float in the space, oh it is not float, nothing supports you, you are just be there, once you fall, maybe not fall, because there is no reference, you will go all the way until your death is coming, reach no end, even there is one, you are just too small to reach it. just too far, maybe farther then what we know. you just drift, drift, drift. even pass decades, nothing in your eyes will change, maybe the sun light will be dimer, but all the stars will stay right exact where they are as you first time saw them, you are just too small, and too short.

gradually, you will lose your fear, because you lost your sense, you might wonder if you are still or not, too long time since the start, you just merely forget what all this happened. are you still are you moving, you just have no clue, no way to know. you will just wonder what is going on, what is next, nothing next, now is the end, all the same. actually the end has shown, you just didnt realise it. what you think is the begining is the end.

if you are old enough, probably you can see something different, but you will just forget what is the same, so what is difference? time will lose its meaning, space has it but you just dont understand. because you are just too samll. too fucking small. you probably will go into total vacuum, it is not something special, it is just normal. just like when you stayed where you were. you just didnt realise it.

so just enjoy the empty, no time, no space, nothing even i can describe. no meaning, no color, no number, no words, no symbol, no gender, it is not even blank, it is nothing, it is a state you cant even image, not even when you think you can image it, you still cant grasp any tiny little part, its in the shell, or it is outside? where is the shell? shell? what shell?

what? what do you want to know? know? there is nothing for you to know. there is nothing even arouse you curiosity, soemthing there? what? try to find something? you just in the loop, all over again, nothing you can aware outside the loop. so stop going farther, you are going no where. you were even not going, all the same.

maybe it is not a bussiness of forward, i think it is not. because it just goes back to the start. all the same.

then you drop back, down on your butt, hit like shit, bang, you are back, stoke here, going no where, tiny little pethatic being.

it will start again, and the end, the start, the end, the start, the end.